Yesterday was the end of a (residential) era. While I no longer live in Seattle, I’m still at least adjacent to it. I can’t decide whether or not I’m upset. A good friend of mind pointed out to me the other day that I’ve gotten everything I said I wanted…

At what point can an event be so traumatic that it changes your brain chemistry? Does it make you lose yourself or is there a path back to who you used to be? Or is the lesson that we should not want to be who we are when something so…

If you can’t start your life totally over at forty, when can you? I recently read a quote that encourages us to stop wishing we were X age and start thinking of ourselves as old with the sudden opportunity to wake up in the body we currently have. And while…

That’s what my client had to say about me when I replied to an email that he has ignored for the better part of three weeks via email and Slack. I don’t have words to describe what it feels like to be so personally disliked in this way. There are…

I should be in Maui right now – sitting on a beach with some couch surfing friends, drinking a mocktail (because I’m taking a major break from the real stuff), and doing actual surfing with all of the sea turtles around the island. Instead, I’m laying on my couch in…

That was the feedback I got from work today when I was unceremoniously fired from my project. Is it accurate feedback? No. Was I told it’s likely because I’m a woman? Yes. Is that my company’s fault? No. Is that the client’s fault? Yes. But here we are – here…

Depression is an isolating spiral of confused loneliness. It eclipses the sunshine and holds only darkness. I haven’t wanted to reflect on my life or emotions in quite some time and even now I only find myself doing so because I have nothing better to do while I wait to…

This is going to be the briefest and most useless post I’ll probably ever make. But I’ve managed to spend a marginally normal amount of time at work before I extrapolated myself from the chaos of production support. Since then I’ve been cosplaying as a retired person (as a friend…

It’s been a long time since I posted – literally and emotionally. The upheaval I’ve had from this week with work and close connections has been a lot to sift through and now I have some personal time to sit with everything. I need to take some significant time away…

This entry is going to be less of a means to express and understand myself but more of a mechanism to use a book as a tool to do it for me (and hopefully quote it correctly without violating any copyrights or committing plagiarism). And the title of this entry…